Journey, Part 26

On Saturday we addressed many things like purity, and fear. One of the things was on guilt, shame and condemnation. I have to let you know for you to understand this part of my story, that I have my own personal term of endearment for the Lord. I call Him " my Jesus " thereby making it very personal. Below I have included a section of an email that I had sent to a friend of mine telling her of what God did for me on Saturday morning at the Cleansing Stream Retreat:

I'm rediscovering my Jesus, and He has done so much in my life. I love Him so much. And for the first time in my life I know that I really am His. This weekend at the retreat was amazing. There came a time when we went up for prayer for Guilt/Shame and Condemnation. I went up with and idea of what I wanted prayer for, But God had other things in mind. They had us get water all over our hand so we could remove the veil that was keeping us from seeing the Lord. So one of the people helped me walk over to an anointer so I could keep my hands wet. The anointer held onto my arms so I wouldn't fall over and they told me to go ahead and wipe the veil off my face. So because I had done this before, I simply went through the motion. At that point a captain ( that's someone who is there for the anointer if they need help praying ) came up and said are you done. I didn't feel like I was done so they told me to do it again, tears were streaming down my face, they told me to take my time and do it as much as I needed too. The more I did it the more aggressively I wanted this off of me. I began to cry harder and began to push harder on my face pulling the veil down, in the spirit I could see like I was clawing at my face trying to get this thing off of me, finally I saw one large chunk that looked like black bubble wrap come off my face, and I knew I was done, so they told me to look up with my eyes open and hands raised high in praise. They were encouraging me and praying and rejoicing with me the whole time. The captain asked me if I could see my Jesus. I was having problems but I knew the Lord wanted to show me something. He told me it was ok if I closed my eyes. I was telling the Lord that I loved Him, when I saw Him or I should say the impression of Him, and He cupped my face in His Hands, and on my right side, the side where I had seen the stuff removed, He began stroking with His hand, as if He were healing that place. I told Him again that I loved Him, and He simply said "My Cathy". Well of course I totally lost it at that point, and praised Him all the more. From there we went after the spirit of guilt shame and condemnation, and cast it out of my life for good. I am Free! And I know that I know, That I really am His. And know that He loves me.

I just wanted to share with you a little bit of what God does at these retreats I know His work is not all about me, but this was just so very precious. He's so amazing! You see God knows right where to meet us, and when to meet us. He so gentle with us because He loves us so very much. He wants to see all His children free from the things that bind us. And I will have to say time and time again I've seen how God brings healing and restoration through the " Cleansing Stream " Ministry.

Won't you step into His cleansing stream? You will never regret it.---Believer

Journey, Part 25

For the past eight weeks I've been going through the " Cleansing Stream Seminar" with my friend and Care Pastor. We finished up with the Retreat this past weekend. It was far more than anyone could have asked for and believed would happen. There were around 100-150 people there and it was so amazing to watch every one get free from all the bondage's. The neat thing about Cleansing stream, is that it is a discipleship ministry. Teaching and training people up to get rid of bondage's from their lives, and be able to stay free. For many of us we would go up for prayer with something in mind, or not knowing what to expect and then God in His Awesomeness would do what He wanted.

I personally have done Cleansing Stream eleven times, I've done every thing from being a participant to being an anointer. Ten times in the church that I went where I lived before I met my husband and got married. And I just finished the eleventh time this past weekend, except this time I went as a participant. Now you may be asking yourself why anyone would go through something like that eleven times. Well my answer to you is 1.) It's like an onion that has many layers, and each time you go through God goes a little deeper, and peels another layer of the onion off. And 2.) It's not only awesome to get free myself, but to see so many other people getting free as well from the stuff from our pasts. And then the third and final reason is that you walk away with tools that you will be able to use your entire Christian walk.

On Friday night we were dealing with rejection, and the spirit behind rejection. Well God began dealing with me two days before the retreat, about my childhood and began showing me how much rejection I really had felt as a child, that I really didn't think had been there. But He began to show me on Wednesday before the retreat. Once we were dealing with the rejection on Friday night, the Lord began to show me that I had, so much shame and self rejection, for being born with Cerebral Palsy. Now like I said in an earlier blog, I've never felt sorry for myself for being born the way I was born. I've always taken the stance that I wouldn't be who I am if I hadn't been born with a disability. So when the Lord started showing me this I knew He was touching stuff from way back in my childhood. Stuff I hadn't even realized was there.

They had us go up for prayer, by rows and where I was sitting was about three quarters of the way back so I had a while to wait, but as soon as the people in the first row stood up and started going to be prayed for I started crying, and I couldn't stop. I cried the whole time, and finally I got my turn to be prayed for. I went up, and I began to tell the anointer ( the person who prays for and with you ) of my childhood, We went after the spirit of rejection, and broke it's hold over my life, and commanded it to never return in Jesus Name.

I don't want you to think that we were a bunch of demon possessed people, because we weren't. Once a Christian and you have accepted Jesus into your heart, you CAN NOT be demon possessed, because Jesus holds that place in our hearts. But what we can be is oppressed, which means being held down by the enemy, and he can tell you lies and try to hinder your walk with Christ, and to try to keep you from becoming all that God wants you to be.

I have said it before and I will say it again, Christians aren't perfect, we are simply saved by the grace and mercy of God through His Son Jesus.---Believer.